Thee year of the Gav

Good morning,  its 6:57 sorry 6:58 on a Saturday morning, I'm sat in a Starbucks. I'm drinking their Christmas blend of filter coffee, they are playing Christmas music. Their Christmas music is different, its light hearted pop/ cover versions. The cast of Casualty sing like Bing, that sort of thing. It's music sung by familiar voices but people I can't name anymore. It's that awkward time of year, the cusp between people thinking it's too early to celebrate but more and more people are doing it so it seems easier to join in and I'm okay with that. There is a Christmas tree in the corner and all of the cups have a festive face on. The corporation is clearly focused at this time of year, but it seems to go deeper than that. Whether it is down to me being up before the sun or the caffeine in the yuletide blend or Starbucks customer service something is stirring in me. Maybe its the nostalgia of Christmases past. Maybe its just Cobham. Whatever ever it is, this big cynic (Me) is turning soft.  It is Christmas and people start to smile a bit easier, they start to think about others a bit more and try to be the people they always wanted to be. I'm not a fan of 6:57 or 6:58 for that matter, but I am a fan of nice, people being nice and people realising that they have been nice to (I'm not sure that makes sense)
I hope you have a lovely end of 2014 and a cracking beginning to 2015, I hope you are able to see the people that make you feel good and I hope that I get to see you, if I am one of those people to you. Best wishes Gav

December 31st

So that’s it, it’s done, the final page

I’ve been longing for this date

I’ve transcended my health and age

Now, it can finally abate

It’s been a test of endurance

It’s taken all of my nerve

Thank you for your deference

For taking the time to observe

This year, you have been a viewer

To one man’s struggling cries

Idea’s came less fast and more fewer

And the lows outnumbered the highs

But our hero, stuck to his convictions

He courageously stuck out his chin

He conquered negative predictions

And changed his lose to a win

However my work is now treated

Whether ridicule or with rejoice

I’m glad that it’s finally completed

I’m glad there are words for my voice

This book has taken some attending

With hard work and all of my heart

And although it feels like the ending

I know that it is only the start

December 30th

It's not going to be a deal breaker

Its won't show up in the stars

It wont realign the equator

It's not pure energy for cars

It's not going to be a best seller

Or help with curing hunger

It won't be deemed as stellar

It won't make you look any younger

It won't make the ladies love you

It won't stand you out from the crowd

It wont help become more impromptu

It wont silver line your grey cloud

But for me this has been my beginning

For me, it has changed my sky

I've jumped on the world as it's spinning

And submitted my right to reply

For those of you who know me

And my often laid back style

You've helped clear up my debris

And restored my inner smile

Feel free to accept your commendation

With out you, this couldn't have happened

You've made my year a sensation

Feel free to jump on the bandwagon

For the input you feel you have

I'm sure you'll quickly agree

This has been The year of the Gav

Thank you and well done me!

December 29th

Trying to express how I feel

Waiting upon the final reveal

I want explode and tell the world

Fly my flag fully unfurled

My eyes well up with sadness

Outweighed by the relief and gladness

Awoken from my daily hypnosis

Sad and happy in solid osmosis

Glowing and internally proud

Wanting to shout out loud

Look at what I have created

my first achievement, culminated

I'm amazed that the end is near

Really, has it been a year?

It's flowed and dragged in equal measure

Giving as much pain as pleasure

I'm atop Everest with Hillary and Tenzing

I'm Frodo Baggins disposing of the ring

My journey hasn't stayed unblemished

First stage is over but not finished

The writing weight has been lifted

For now the pressure has shifted

I'm entering a chapter of not knowing

And with your help, I'll keep the impetus going

December 28th

Next the task of editing

Next comes time for reason

Next is constant head hitting

Next comes silly season

Next is time to reflect

Next comes celebration

Next is the job to dissect

Next comes irritation

Next is staring blankly

Next comes empty head

Next come statements frankly

Next comes things unsaid

Next a time for thinking

Next comes a plateau

Next is confidence shrinking

Next comes, I don’t know

Next is desperately needed

Next is judgement day

Next precedes succeeded

Next is the only way

December 27th

What now, I've finished writing?
What now, for the New Year?
What new project needs biting?
What next is still unclear
What happened this year was amazing
What happened to me as a man
It gave me more focused gazing
It gave me the start of a plan
The people who chose to come with me
Give me the strength that I need
The show of support and energy
Changed me and helped me succeed
Your part is not taken for granted

It laid foundations for my pride

It gave me sense of seeds planted

And help them to grow inside

What now, as I reach the curtain?
What next? As I take my bow
I wondered but now know for certain

The future of ‘me’ is right now. 

December 26th

may your future be pleasant

may your adventures all be new

may your mind always be present

And your skies always be blue

May the new year make you wise

may it bring you happiness

may you breath in every surprise

and feel your sorrow less

May you keep yourself together

May your family be your guide

May you take, always, good weather

May you feel more satisfied

May you share in all the good times

May you cancel out the bad

May you taste a little sublime

with the struggle you have had

May you always be forgiven

by those who know you best

May the love that you have given

be returned with interest

May you start to open up doors

may your windows open too

may you soak up all the applause

That is aimed at you